Life. It [Continues]

This one is inspired by a sudden urge.
It's quite simple actually.
I wish I was cool.
Like not just
"yo wadup"
But more
"hip"
"dry"
"artsy"
and st8up
"witty"

Laugh.
This is a funny subject. I hope it is anyway. And it's not anything to come consoling to be about. I'm perfffecttttly fine with who I am, but every once in awhile..on these rare occasions when I'm listening to Beck, watching Pulp Fiction on tv, and browsing t-shirts on threadless, I kinda sorta wish I could pull off the indie/scene kid look.

Right now, I don't think I look like the kid I feel.
On the inside, I'm rocking the black rimed frames and fauxed red hair.
But right here, in front of my Wong Kar Wai album art, I think something gets mixed up and lost in "bill murray" translation.

Here I am.
I know good taste.
I can write a mean poem that won't involve death.
I said, "peace, love, and happiness" on my last blog.
Coffee?
TANLINES on areas other than the elbows?

Don't it all count for something?
Laugh.
This is funny. Not serious. (I don't expect..nor want.. any words of advise cause this is NOT my head talking right here. No control. I don't even know. Ryan. Has. Left. The Exosphere.) Ready? wurd

So how did this all start..with a shirt..actually a whole lotta shirts. threadless.com why are all you people so hip??
Me: I see a shirt/design I like, think about it, ooh that'd be cool, how would it look, hmmm, not bad, give a turn, check out the mirror, stop, look, turn, stop, examine, hmmm, analyze, oh, wait, stop, errr, turn, look, hmmmm, wait, nah, hmmmm, wellll, nah, click, back, click, facebook, click, back, well, but nah, who needs it, looks stupid, what's it even meann??
click
facebook?
no shirt.
sigghhhhhhh
Stupid shirt.

One day, when I've grown out of my awkward ages, gotten my hair to a length I like, and perfected the art of ambiguity and blueberry nights, I believe every little thing - is gonna be alright. Ya heard. Threadless..i won't need yo nonsense.
But let's not get hasty now.

I LOVE going after styles I may not be able to pull off. Cause why the fdjksjdk not. It's all part of the process and hopefully this "psudo-advice" is the rock that you needed to see come anchoring out of my head and onto solid ground because I swear, I'm on stable docks here and I know what I'm talking about.
It's OKAY for me to do this every once in awhile and just picture myself with a beanie and trimmed beard. (That image stays between me and me though)

In the long run, will I reallllly care if I don't miraculously turn out looking like someone straight out of Juno? Nope. What would I need that look for? Sure, it'd be nice for my exterior to maybe match my interior. But the house will still be standing..The house will always be standing.
no matter what kind of paint job may be going on inside.